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imagine yourself in a forest of thistles...


...

you've chosen this unnatural path some years ago...

it looked like a straight, smooth way,
the easy way.
the way almost everybody appeared to prefere.
not really fascinating
but is seemed wise to go along instead of
crossing the wilderness or standing still.

the first few meters you've left behinde were
easy. you went up, you went down, you made
rests... and while you sat there you cought a glimpse
at the scenery.

...

this was the moment where you felt that
incredible longing again, you've felt before ...
the longing that has gone away due to the rythmic
steps of your monotone journey...

you sat there ... just an instant before you started
to walk again. shaking your head, to get it out.
but you can't shake your heart. can you?

the further you went, the more you felt that
the road started to sprout thistles...
just a few in the beginning... but more and more
the further you went...

numb from your longing, you tumbled through that path.
until you fell.

a moment you discover that you're there:


....


imagined in a forest of thistles.

...

with thistles as keen as your longing....
feet full of thornes.
eyes staring at the inside of your eyelids.

and the ongoing pain in your chest, that's telling you to walk.

...


I dip a brush into my bleeding feet.
i paint my thistles red.
i paint them in dramatic cadmium tones.
imagine for myself how it was to cut them down...
i'm walking in circles around each thistle,
slowly trying to focus on it's beauty...

....

why the hell do i stare at my thistles, when there was
scenery once in my mind to look at? wilderness to discover?
tell me thistle? why does it hurt so deep in my chest?


...


it's a balloon.
the pain in my chest,
a balloon that has grown so thick
no thistle could ever burst it....


...

i am an artist. painting with my bloody feet.
loving the pain that keeps me creating.
appeasing my inspiration to be patient with me.
telling it to be silent while i have to wander through
thistle forests.


i am an artist.

thank you thistle for telling me.

:heart:

my life in a wrong dress by Minzile

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lucas-irineu's avatar
I'm having a hard time figuring out if this is about you, or everyone. Either way, it's beautiful.